Human being is a very unique creatures. They can’t live without others, but they can be so damn individual. But beside that two, they are so emotional. Socialist, individualist, and emotionalist. What a thing!

Why? One night i could felt pissed off, terribly messed up like a dying person. But in the next morning, it was suddenly disappeared. I lost the sadness, and wondered why i became so emotional last night. It was pretty weird, and i couldn’t control that feeling. But in the morning, everything is alright. Meanwhile, what did i do?? Nothing. I just cried all night long, and fell asleep. And everything become good? I am afraid so. It really is!

It’s amazing. I feel like a big ballon with sand in the bottom of me. Hands punched me badly until i kiss the floor ass, but i can go up high to the air, stand on my feet with strength from nowhere. From God? It is the most possible thing that can explain this. But that’s not my point. I’m not gonna talk about God. Maybe at least, I’m not talk about the power. It’s a gift. Human being have to deal with life. And here I am. I am dealing with life, cried on and standing up on my own feet. Suddenly, I’m ready for every coming shits, after wished death the other night before.

Not always that easy though, I used to wake up with teary eyes. Everything wasn’t done yet. I felt that i was too weak to stand. So? WAIT. Yea, if you can’t deal with life, so you deal with time. Be patient, because time is moving, and changes are everywhere. Even though there is no ‘happily ever after’, but it gonna be stop killing you. It have to be stop, and it will. Just wait. Try to move on. Maybe it is impossible to jump up with your weak soul, but keep moving. Raise your hands, give a little move for fingers and legs. One day, you will stand again.

Just not sleep. If you freeze, you will numb. You will have no idea when the power improves your healthy. Trust me, all we need is just keep fuckin moving!